This past Monday, Cindy and I strolled into the doctor’s office. Our mission…to check up on Sexy Mexy II and I was ready! I even brought my handy-dandy recorder to get audio of the heartbeat. Cindy and I went into the examination room where she proceeded to get undressed. After I checked the recorder's levels and confirmed that everything was in working order, the doctor grabbed the sonogram wand and started…well, doing stuff to my wife. As the time passed, I stared eagerly at the monitor waiting to see my next bi-racial baby. Then more time passed…and a little more. After a good minute or so, my right thumb slowly inched its way down the side of the recorder and turned it off. It was at that moment I realized something. Something that a couple doesn't want to believe, but must understand its a decision made by God. That something is that it wasn’t the right time for Cindy and I to have another child.

Now I’ll be honest, I was numb for awhile. As Cindy put on a brave face and asked questions to the doctor about what went wrong, I didn’t know what to do. I just stood there thinking about what might have been. But I quickly said to myself, "Troy, you should appreciate the things you have rather than mourn something you never really had at all." And that’s exactly what I’m doing.

I am extremely grateful for the people I have in my life. Family and friends that I can count on, a son who makes me smile everyday and a best friend that I can call my wife. And don’t worry about me! I’m sure next week I’ll be talking about how Sexy Mexy is STILL having trouble with potty training and will more than likely be attending college in Pampers. Until then…I’ll just sit back, appreciate the things I have and understand that it wasn't the right time.